Grown ups?
Remember when you were little and you couldn't wait to grow up? I do....Oh how I do...I wanted to be a grown up with a job, and checks and my own "stuff." Didn't we all? Now I am a grown up with a job, I don't use checks and I have no desire for stuff. It is silly. I like the simple things about life that make events fun and easy.
Any way nothing recently seems easy. Nothing. I know that when stressed life always seems more complicated than it really is. My love, my husband tells me all the time "you just gotta let this stuff go." I can't. I can't seem to stop thinking about the if's, what's,why's and how come's. I want things to work out and fit just so in our plans, in our lives....sadly they are not.
So here is the question I am posed with once again. Do I wait for the thing that fits just so, or do I say yes to something that we can make fit if needed? Their are pros and cons to both, although I like simple. I like easy. I don't do drama well and I don't do in-decision.
When I start to think like this I am often reminded of the quote "Life is what happens when you are making plans." Our plans change on a dime. We hope to go here or there and end up there or here. Never concrete plans, always willing to adapt. Sometimes I don't want to. Sometimes I want it to be just so...be simple. After awhile all the adaptation becomes a little heavy.
On a similar but totally different note.
We are saying goodbye to Denver tomorrow morning. Headed on a new little adventure. Do I stay on the adventure or take the new detour that wasn't planned? AH, too much! I think I may be making too much out of this, but I long to spend all time and space enjoying life and being with my love, my husband.
Oh, and I am signed up to do a race this weekend...
Any way nothing recently seems easy. Nothing. I know that when stressed life always seems more complicated than it really is. My love, my husband tells me all the time "you just gotta let this stuff go." I can't. I can't seem to stop thinking about the if's, what's,why's and how come's. I want things to work out and fit just so in our plans, in our lives....sadly they are not.
So here is the question I am posed with once again. Do I wait for the thing that fits just so, or do I say yes to something that we can make fit if needed? Their are pros and cons to both, although I like simple. I like easy. I don't do drama well and I don't do in-decision.
When I start to think like this I am often reminded of the quote "Life is what happens when you are making plans." Our plans change on a dime. We hope to go here or there and end up there or here. Never concrete plans, always willing to adapt. Sometimes I don't want to. Sometimes I want it to be just so...be simple. After awhile all the adaptation becomes a little heavy.
On a similar but totally different note.
We are saying goodbye to Denver tomorrow morning. Headed on a new little adventure. Do I stay on the adventure or take the new detour that wasn't planned? AH, too much! I think I may be making too much out of this, but I long to spend all time and space enjoying life and being with my love, my husband.
Oh, and I am signed up to do a race this weekend...
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