Change is gonna come
Over the many months of pregnancy, moving, new jobs, old jobs, new friends, old friends and new everything I have come to a couple conclusions...Change is coming and instead of fearing it all the time and worrying that I can't handle it I am going to just roll with it.
My dear cousin Althea had a post on facebook this morning that I decided to take part it. Although I am not going to post it on Facebook, I thought I would here...She assigned me an age to think about...then to answer some questions. So here goes
Age I was given: 21
Where I lived: Sycamore IL
What I drove: a gold 1998 Saturn
Where I worked: Steak-n-Shake and Central DuPage Hospital
I wanted to be: out of school and working as a nurse full time (I know, boring right)
I feared: The truth of my life
The last question is the one that prompted me to write today. I was 21 going on 60. I really disliked the path I was on in my life but was so terrified to speak up...I was afraid of failing at everything and thought that if I could just grin and bear it, the rest would work out. The fear of being honest with myself paralyzed me to live a life that other people thought I should live. It wasn't until I stepped back and realized that, this is it....This is my life...MINE. I should be living it the way I wanted...Sure, I wanted to be a nurse but I wanted and still want to experience everything possible. Why not? That is what life is about right? If a chance comes a long to do something you have never done before, why not take it?
I could rant about this for such a long time...the truth is whatever dreams you have hidden away, don't! Embrace them.
Back to the question and answers:
NOW
Where I live: Everywhere. Ethel, STL, and any travel gig that we decide to journey on
What I drive: A Jeep Wrangler or a VW golf TDI
Where I work: St Louis Childrens, Central DuPage Hospital, A Baby Naturally and again any travel gig we take
I want to be: Me. To learn more about myself and to be happy with that each and everyday.
I fear: Not being able to do it all.
Sounds corny but really I have the best partner, husband, friend, and father of our future child in Andy. When we decide to do something it is an adventure. He has taught me so much about myself and what love really looks like.
So what does change have to do with all this? Well, life is about change. Everyone changes all the time. It happens and we don't even know it. Love it, Embrace it and look forward to it! Right now I need to focus on getting ready for The Dubs! 9 more weeks and we get to meet you! We can't wait for that and really can't wait for the changes that come with it!
My dear cousin Althea had a post on facebook this morning that I decided to take part it. Although I am not going to post it on Facebook, I thought I would here...She assigned me an age to think about...then to answer some questions. So here goes
Age I was given: 21
Where I lived: Sycamore IL
What I drove: a gold 1998 Saturn
Where I worked: Steak-n-Shake and Central DuPage Hospital
I wanted to be: out of school and working as a nurse full time (I know, boring right)
I feared: The truth of my life
The last question is the one that prompted me to write today. I was 21 going on 60. I really disliked the path I was on in my life but was so terrified to speak up...I was afraid of failing at everything and thought that if I could just grin and bear it, the rest would work out. The fear of being honest with myself paralyzed me to live a life that other people thought I should live. It wasn't until I stepped back and realized that, this is it....This is my life...MINE. I should be living it the way I wanted...Sure, I wanted to be a nurse but I wanted and still want to experience everything possible. Why not? That is what life is about right? If a chance comes a long to do something you have never done before, why not take it?
I could rant about this for such a long time...the truth is whatever dreams you have hidden away, don't! Embrace them.
Back to the question and answers:
NOW
Where I live: Everywhere. Ethel, STL, and any travel gig that we decide to journey on
What I drive: A Jeep Wrangler or a VW golf TDI
Where I work: St Louis Childrens, Central DuPage Hospital, A Baby Naturally and again any travel gig we take
I want to be: Me. To learn more about myself and to be happy with that each and everyday.
I fear: Not being able to do it all.
Sounds corny but really I have the best partner, husband, friend, and father of our future child in Andy. When we decide to do something it is an adventure. He has taught me so much about myself and what love really looks like.
So what does change have to do with all this? Well, life is about change. Everyone changes all the time. It happens and we don't even know it. Love it, Embrace it and look forward to it! Right now I need to focus on getting ready for The Dubs! 9 more weeks and we get to meet you! We can't wait for that and really can't wait for the changes that come with it!
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