Resentment
Resentment is such a horrible feeling and to be honest it is a horrible word from the start. It has such a horrible connotation when said out loud.
I personally feel as though we often label this word as a "bad" word or something that we shouldn't feel....We all feel it right? Well if you don't; you are a better person than I am and you can stop reading here.
When I woke up this morning after a long week of traveling, car rides, hotel stays, crabby kiddos and lots more rain I will 100% admit that I resented the fact that I didn't get a break. As I laid in bed and thought about my laundry list of things that I needed to get done (and still need to get done) I thought about how it would be nice to have a day off. Better than that, just a morning off. No taking the dogs out, feeding them, making breakfast, getting G up, doing the dishes....you know all the things that are part of the W family routine.
So you may be reading this thinking that I am complaining here but it is quite the opposite. Yes it is hard not to think that the grass is greener on the other side. Truth is when I start to feel like this I really do try to look at it from the other persons point of view. Sure, G and I had a rough week....I think it would do us both some good to have some down time. BUT, Andy also had a busy week. He drives everywhere when travel, books the hotels, goes to work, comes home and plays with us, and still has to work after G goes to bed....On this particular trip he had to figure out a new hotel plan seeing as the first one was HORRID. So yeah, this morning he got the morning off to go and play hockey....Was I resentful? YUP, for a moment and then I thought about how this is his first time to himself since we had been traveling. Playing hockey was his exercise, his way to blow off steam, relax and re-group. Resentment faded.
What is the point?
When I feel like I did this morning it is easy to play the "woe is me" act out in my head but then I think that everyday EVERYONE has things to do. Everyone has a to do list that doesn't get done. For a moment I was upset and then I thought about it and the moment was gone.
I will be taking some time for myself this week. It will be awesome, especially because I get to take it with Andy; but I wouldn't give up a moment of my life.
Ok, mind dump over, back to the day!
Thanks
I personally feel as though we often label this word as a "bad" word or something that we shouldn't feel....We all feel it right? Well if you don't; you are a better person than I am and you can stop reading here.
When I woke up this morning after a long week of traveling, car rides, hotel stays, crabby kiddos and lots more rain I will 100% admit that I resented the fact that I didn't get a break. As I laid in bed and thought about my laundry list of things that I needed to get done (and still need to get done) I thought about how it would be nice to have a day off. Better than that, just a morning off. No taking the dogs out, feeding them, making breakfast, getting G up, doing the dishes....you know all the things that are part of the W family routine.
So you may be reading this thinking that I am complaining here but it is quite the opposite. Yes it is hard not to think that the grass is greener on the other side. Truth is when I start to feel like this I really do try to look at it from the other persons point of view. Sure, G and I had a rough week....I think it would do us both some good to have some down time. BUT, Andy also had a busy week. He drives everywhere when travel, books the hotels, goes to work, comes home and plays with us, and still has to work after G goes to bed....On this particular trip he had to figure out a new hotel plan seeing as the first one was HORRID. So yeah, this morning he got the morning off to go and play hockey....Was I resentful? YUP, for a moment and then I thought about how this is his first time to himself since we had been traveling. Playing hockey was his exercise, his way to blow off steam, relax and re-group. Resentment faded.
What is the point?
When I feel like I did this morning it is easy to play the "woe is me" act out in my head but then I think that everyday EVERYONE has things to do. Everyone has a to do list that doesn't get done. For a moment I was upset and then I thought about it and the moment was gone.
I will be taking some time for myself this week. It will be awesome, especially because I get to take it with Andy; but I wouldn't give up a moment of my life.
Ok, mind dump over, back to the day!
Thanks
Great post! Sometimes, ok a lot of times I feel this way. I resent the fact that I'm the only parent in my girls lives on a regular basis. That I don't really ever get time to myself. This week is different. My sister took my girls for FIVE days! I didn't know what to do with myself, I still don't. I miss them so much it almost hurts. Then I think. They are in a safe place, having fun and spending time not only with family but a new puppy! They need this just as much as I do. Thank you so much for sharing. I like your comment, mind dump over. I think I will be doing this mind dumping thing soon!
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