Sad Sad World
Today when I woke up and looked out the window it was a gloomy day... You know the kind of day I am talking about. The kind of day where you just know it is going to be gloomy and dark all day. As the day opened up in front of me it was clear that it was just that, a sad and gloomy day. Hearing some really sad news a couple times through-out the day made the gloom hang over my head. Work ended and I was so happy to open the door and feel the sun shine through the clouds.
I drove home with the window down and let the crisp damp air flood the Jeep. As I turned toward my beloved Ethel, I couldn't wait to hold my little family in my arms. The gloom had lifted. Really the sun shines from the faces of my partner and my son. We laughed and played as the evening came to a close.
Then all of a sudden as I listened to my son playing in the tub with his Papa right near by....I thought this is all going to change. In a few short months we no longer will be a family of 3 but of 4. The thought of that kind of crushed me. I don't think that I have really thought about that. You know, how much it is going to change. How our daily routine is going to now have another little person added to it.
Gus got done with bath time and I found myself holding this little man and crying. Thinking about all the moments just like this one we have already had and how many more we will have in the future. Gus looked at me and wiped away my tears. He had such concern in his eyes for me...Then he promptly tooted and laughed and I was reminded why this little person holds the sun in his eyes.
The future is going to be a big change but as long as I get to see the bright lights coming from Andy and G, I am reminded that gloomy days come and go.
I drove home with the window down and let the crisp damp air flood the Jeep. As I turned toward my beloved Ethel, I couldn't wait to hold my little family in my arms. The gloom had lifted. Really the sun shines from the faces of my partner and my son. We laughed and played as the evening came to a close.
Then all of a sudden as I listened to my son playing in the tub with his Papa right near by....I thought this is all going to change. In a few short months we no longer will be a family of 3 but of 4. The thought of that kind of crushed me. I don't think that I have really thought about that. You know, how much it is going to change. How our daily routine is going to now have another little person added to it.
Gus got done with bath time and I found myself holding this little man and crying. Thinking about all the moments just like this one we have already had and how many more we will have in the future. Gus looked at me and wiped away my tears. He had such concern in his eyes for me...Then he promptly tooted and laughed and I was reminded why this little person holds the sun in his eyes.
The future is going to be a big change but as long as I get to see the bright lights coming from Andy and G, I am reminded that gloomy days come and go.
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