Loss and Love

When was the first time you felt loss?

The normal question is something more fun and romantic....When was your first love?

The truth is both are such strong and huge emotions. Love and loss both encompass your whole world.

Yesterday sucked.

Two years ago we had to say goodbye to our first pup. Mr. B- Bishop was a great dog. We jokingly said he was Andy in dog form....then there was Bomber- me in dog form. Yesterday we had to say our goodbyes. 

Today I woke up and the silence of her not being here was deafening. While I made breakfast and dropped some eggs on the floor I started crying when I realized she wasn't right under-foot to get a snack. I started to pick up her things around the house and the realization that for the first time in almost 11 years we don't have a dog in our home. That my friends, that is weird.

As big and strong as love is, loss my be bigger.

Andy and I had so many firsts with our dogs. Now with them both gone it feels like such a huge part of our story is gone. Maybe this doesn't make sense to anyone else, maybe I am over-thinking it.  Here is what I know. Saying goodbye to her yesterday was horrible. So many memories include her, include her and Mr. B....now as our adventure continues they aren't part of it.

Cheers to you Bomber