Just Drive
This morning I was lucky enough (thanks Mom and Dad) to have another day to myself. So I woke up with these huge aspirations to do so many things for "me" but now it is 1145 and I have done minimal things.
Does anyone else struggle with this? I am so rarely away from my family, especially my children that when I find myself in this situation I actually don't know what to do. I get paralyzed with all these options. Silly right?!
Yesterday I got out of bed to get a breakfast snack and then crawled right back, enjoyed countless episodes of a show and just being alone with myself. It was beautiful. Today could not be another day like that though....not for me. So I got up and drove 40 minutes to the city just to have breakfast. Then I drove the 40 minutes back to our hotel. Seemed so silly to do that but why? I don't have my kiddos with me. I don't have to work today. Strangely unless I accomplish tons and tons of things on my to-do list I don't feel productive. Why is this?
Why do we do this to ourselves?
The best part of my morning was the drive. I was alone in the car, silent just enjoying the beauty of the Toronto lake shore. Truly, it was lovely. It kind of spoke to me. "Just drive" obviously was what I was doing but it was so much more than that. In that time it was just me, my thoughts and me. I drove in the silence thinking about how much I love my family. How the sounds that our boys make when they are playing are some of the best sounds I have ever heard. How my husband has this power to make all worries and cares fade away by holding my hand. How we live this life that is so far from "normal" that it is deemed "crazy" by some. My thoughts were beautiful.
As I continued the drive the cloudiness of the morning was fading away and the sun began to shine. Shine against the water, against the buildings, the road, and everything else it sparkled on...I thought of quote I use on my team often..."Leave a little sparkle everywhere you go."
So I drove...I saw the sparkle being left by the sun. I felt the warmth of the sun on my face and hands as I drove and thought again about how beautiful things are that are always around us. Why worry about so many things like being "super productive" or being "super mom?" Somedays are meant to be silly and lazy; while some are meant to get your nose to the grind. In the end isn't more about how you feel at the end of the day?
I will continue to drive more, only now I hope that I remember to enjoy the drive. This drive is what is taking me to wherever we are all going.
Does anyone else struggle with this? I am so rarely away from my family, especially my children that when I find myself in this situation I actually don't know what to do. I get paralyzed with all these options. Silly right?!
Yesterday I got out of bed to get a breakfast snack and then crawled right back, enjoyed countless episodes of a show and just being alone with myself. It was beautiful. Today could not be another day like that though....not for me. So I got up and drove 40 minutes to the city just to have breakfast. Then I drove the 40 minutes back to our hotel. Seemed so silly to do that but why? I don't have my kiddos with me. I don't have to work today. Strangely unless I accomplish tons and tons of things on my to-do list I don't feel productive. Why is this?
Why do we do this to ourselves?
The best part of my morning was the drive. I was alone in the car, silent just enjoying the beauty of the Toronto lake shore. Truly, it was lovely. It kind of spoke to me. "Just drive" obviously was what I was doing but it was so much more than that. In that time it was just me, my thoughts and me. I drove in the silence thinking about how much I love my family. How the sounds that our boys make when they are playing are some of the best sounds I have ever heard. How my husband has this power to make all worries and cares fade away by holding my hand. How we live this life that is so far from "normal" that it is deemed "crazy" by some. My thoughts were beautiful.
As I continued the drive the cloudiness of the morning was fading away and the sun began to shine. Shine against the water, against the buildings, the road, and everything else it sparkled on...I thought of quote I use on my team often..."Leave a little sparkle everywhere you go."
So I drove...I saw the sparkle being left by the sun. I felt the warmth of the sun on my face and hands as I drove and thought again about how beautiful things are that are always around us. Why worry about so many things like being "super productive" or being "super mom?" Somedays are meant to be silly and lazy; while some are meant to get your nose to the grind. In the end isn't more about how you feel at the end of the day?
I will continue to drive more, only now I hope that I remember to enjoy the drive. This drive is what is taking me to wherever we are all going.
It's hard to just slow down and really look at what's around us....I don't know why we're always in such a hurry....Thank you for the reminder to just slow down and take in the beauty that's around us!
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